nk wish kew x ??

hye u all .. nk tnye pndpat leyh x ? okea .. soalan dyew cneyh . . PTOT  X I WISH BUFDAY SOMEONE YANK PNAH JDY 'SOMEONE' DLAM IDOP I ?? tpy he always make me cry .. cry .. n cry .. sometimes i miss him a lot but sometimes i hate him fucking damn soo much .. he always in my heart for sure .. smpai i daa xtrbukak aty tok owg laen after dy clash un i ..so ? whut should i do ? i just miss him but i dont wanna talk or meet him after whut he had done to me ! heelllppp me !